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A LEDJN IN HIS OWN TIME

Posted by Angelle Smith on Thursday, February 27, 2020, In : REUNIFICATION

I remember it as if it were yesterday. There was a knock at the door, as I opened it, it was to GOD's greatest surprise. It was a Fedex messenger with a certified letter for Angelle Smith. I quickly tore into the envelope to find a letter from California Department of Family Services (defects, as the kids call it). What could this possibly be? There must be a mistake, I don't have any children in the system anymore. i had lost custody and parental rights years before. The last one had been Le...

BE ENCOURAGED

Posted by Angelle Smith on Thursday, February 27, 2020, In : REUNIFICATION

I remember when Blaize and I first reunited - WOW - Did I ever need someone to talk to. I talked to my mother, but her 'reality' was completely different from mine. She had always been there for me. Eventhough through therapy I had learned that due to my being adopted, I had separation anxiety. Consciously my mom was my mom and was always there for me and always would be there for me, but subconsciously this wasn't the person that i had begun this journey with from conception, and somewhere i...

NOW WHAT?

Posted by Angelle Smith on Thursday, February 27, 2020, In : REUNIFICATION

Strong in faith...fully persuaded...
that what GOD has promised,
he is also able to perform.
When I got reunited with Blaize, my second born, it was truly a performance of God's promise being fulfilled. He truly had fulfilled his promise to me and fulfilled it well. I thought that even though I knew that it was going to happen, the ballgame changes once that faith is manifest. I found that I had questions, that my mother or my sister, try as they may, just couldn't help me with, because my sit...
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I AM A MOTHER

Posted by Angelle Smith on Thursday, February 27, 2020, In : REUNIFICATION

Hi, my name is "Angel" and I am a "mother." I remember growing up, what I wanted 'to do' when "I grew up" changed several times but what I wanted 'to be' didn't. I always knew that I wanted to be a mommy. But, who would've ever thought that when I grew up, I'd be a drug addict. Mother and drug addict don't even roll off the tongue with ease in the same breath. Being one leaves no room for the other. Dealing with the guilt and shame of abandoning my family was even more difficult than the los...
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