February 27, 2020
Strong in faith...fully persuaded...
that what GOD has promised,
he is also able to perform.
When I got reunited with Blaize, my second born, it was truly a performance of God's promise being fulfilled. He truly had fulfilled his promise to me and fulfilled it well. I thought that even though I knew that it was going to happen, the ballgame changes once that faith is manifest. I found that I had questions, that my mother or my sister, try as they may, just couldn't help me with, because my situation was totally different. I had been gone from my children's lives for well over 10 years and now returning or having my son returned to me left me and him in the company of people neither of us knew...
TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!
Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : REUNIFICATION
February 27, 2020
Hi, my name is "Angel" and I am a "mother." I remember growing up, what I wanted 'to do' when "I grew up" changed several times but what I wanted 'to be' didn't. I always knew that I wanted to be a mommy. But, who would've ever thought that when I grew up, I'd be a drug addict. Mother and drug addict don't even roll off the tongue with ease in the same breath. Being one leaves no room for the other. Dealing with the guilt and shame of abandoning my family was even more difficult than the los... Continue reading...
Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : REUNIFICATION
February 26, 2020
Establishing tradition is a part of black culture. I know many families who do many different things. Christmas breakfasts, summer vacations, xmas eve unwrap, Valentine balloons. The traditions vary as does each family, but one of the things all of our traditions encompass is Food!
So as I began reuniting my family I wanted us to establish some type of tradition where we could all get together and celebrate all of the blessings that God has bestowed upon us... on a regular basis. So naturally...
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : BELONGING
February 26, 2020
I remember a time when I used to pray for tears, just to let me know that my heart was still pumping, that I was still feeling and that I was alive. I was very emotional. It didn't take much to get me emotionally charged, but tears and fears don't quite go w/ street life. You must grow a tough skin and suck it up. Any sign of frailty will get you chewed up and spit out. I prayed out loud, not caring who heard me, but my tears were done in my quiet sacred place. Inside.
It was because of this t...
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : PRAYER
February 26, 2020
As I was taught at an early age, GOD is omniscient and omnipresent - All knowing, evenly present, everywhere at all times. As fate would have it, I was returned to the same hospital as my "parents" still-born child. "I'm sorry Mr. Smith but your child didn't make it, she was still-born." "Yeah, you're right", with a little chuckle, " in spite of what you're saying she was Still born, "there she is!," as I was rolled into the nursery from the other direction. "Mr. Smith, please try and und... Continue reading...
Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : ADOPTION
February 26, 2020
It takes a village to raise a child. It's an old African proverb, which my life has proven to me to be the truth. As a child, my mother had a community of friends, who were always there not only for her, but were definitely instrumental in raising me to be the woman that I am. As I became an adult, again my growth has been contingent upon the "village" around me as well. With prayer, ALL the wonderful people, whether or not I thought of them at the time as wonderful will be lifted up as I...
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : LOVE
February 26, 2020
From the first day that I arrived on the scene I was greeted by the Village. I was loved by more aunts, uncles, cousins, brothers, sisters, mothers and fathers than blood could account for. I was embraced with pure love. I was in my family.
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : BELONGING
February 26, 2020
Family is not defined by biology, marriage, or even a home. Family is the people you love and who love you back. The people you feel safe around and those you can count on.
Family isn't always blood. It is the people in your life who want you in theirs. The ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and who love you no matter what. Being genetically related doesn't make you family. Love, support, trust, sacrifice, honesty, protection, acceptance, secu...
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : BELONGING
February 26, 2020
When I pray for something I don't pray frivolously- I know what I ask for and know that I don't know how it will come,
but I await its arrival and look for it at every turn. When it comes, I've learned to be mindful of that for which I have prayed. Giving thanks and living in that blessing with appreciation and remembrance. Remembrance of a time before it was tangible, when it was mere hope. Just the remembrance will keep you appreciative. Keep your blessing afresh- Keep it relevant and keep ... Continue reading...
Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : PRAYER
February 26, 2020
I am so glad that before my mother passed away, I learned how to be a good daughter. I can honestly sleep at night knowing that she knew she had done her job and done it well. I'm sure for many years she doubted and questioned herself, but by the time she left this earth all of those doubts and questions had been dispelled and answered. This is truly one of my greatest joys. I remember while on the street, one of my constant prayers was to please allow my mother to live long enough to see me ...
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Posted by Angelle Smith. Posted In : APPRECIATION